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orphne: (Kotone 1)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-02 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh yeah... I remember the school nurse talked about stuff like that, once.

[He was... a weird guy, to say the least, and she usually dozed off when he went off on a monologue about "magic~" One of his lectures during the summer had been about the arcana, though; that had been interesting. Is it from him she'd first heard of the collective unconscious...? Igor and Theo had called it something else, she's pretty sure.]

That's why I could fuse together all kinds of different gods and angels and creatures and stuff that I'd never heard of, right? Because they exist in the minds of humanity as a whole?

[She just snorts and shakes her head. Yes, people wear jeans, Dazai. Yukari looks really good in them, too!]
orphne: (Kotone 54)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-02 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[She frowns again, because that makes it sound like all of that was orchestrated for her, specifically, and that's not true. She's just not that important. All that stuff that happened wasn't just to her; sure, there were some things that were unique for her, but the whole world was affected, and all of SEES needed to work together to fight it all.

But she looks up in clear curiosity, tilting her head again.]
What are those?
orphne: (Kotone 1)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-02 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Right, I remember the archetypes from one of the literature exams...

[She'd almost definitely slept through the class itself on that topic, but the first two are really interesting. She's not consciously trying to keep it from her face as she chews it all over; Dazai knows enough about it, and he's told her enough about the weirdness in his world, that she knows he'll believe her if she tries to explain any of it. It's just deciding which parts she wants to ask about, and which parts she wants to bother explaining. She definitely doesn't want to implicate Shinji in all of it, or any of the others, that's for sure.

...Aaaah that's a lot of work. She's going to need a nap after this.]


I guess that makes sense. I mean, they called all those different gods and things I was using my Personas, and the monsters I was fighting were called Shadows. They made it sound like most people only have one Persona, though, and it's pretty rare to be able to have more than one like me.
orphne: (Kotone 29)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 12:01 am (UTC)(link)
I'd rather you not do that... I'd only try summoning them if it's really, really important.

[Read: she hasn't even tested to see if it's possible here. She carried her Evoker into the forest, but isn't carrying it now. Initially, she'd been afraid that carrying around a gun would make people ask tricky questions, but even after it became obvious that people are just carrying around weapons like it's no big deal, it still seems a little weird to just start doing it now.

Something about the ease with which he just accepts that it's normal to have more than one makes a little bubble of something she'd forgotten she'd been worried about pop in her chest, a sudden surge of emotion that closes her throat for a second and stops her from answering. Everybody else only had one. They were able to evolve their Persona to something stronger after coming to terms with their own personal struggles, but they'd never had more than one. She'd thought maybe there was something wrong with her; the way Thanatos burst out of Orpheus at the time had been kind of scary, even if her memories of that are hazy enough that it's mostly based on what she'd been told after, not what she actually remembers.

She doesn't start crying at the idea that it's normal to be able to swap around one's true self, but she can't speak immediately, trying to keep her emotions in check.]
orphne: (Kotone 52)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
[She just kind of looks at his hand, confused by what he's offering. Right. He'd asked a question, hadn't he? Give her a few seconds, she just has to remember to breathe again. Right. It's normal to be able to switch what's in your head to match the person you're talking to, isn't it? That's what he's saying?

She takes a breath through her nose, holds it, and lets it out again, forcing herself to swallow what had been choking her and reach to pick up the other half of the sandwich she'd been eating and put it in his hand. There you go. For you.]


They're all my Personas, [she says finally, swallowing past a lump in her throat and forcing herself to answer normally.] The one I awoke to myself was Orpheus, though I don't have her with me anymore.

[Thanatos hadn't been hers, really, back then; that had been Ryoji, sealed inside her ten years ago.]
orphne: (Kotone 119-1)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
...Huh?

[Well, the confusion is enough to snap her out of the last lingering bits of the emotion she'd been struggling with, leaving her blinking at him and trying to figure out if she's being made fun of.]

Is it...?
orphne: (Kotone 35)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
I mean... I guess so...

[She's still kind of blinking, more than a little thrown by his reaction. No one in SEES had been impressed by Orpheus, which made sense at the time. They'd all been really busy with everything else, and then going through Tartarus, picking up other Personas, fusing them...

Idly, she wonders how he'd react to know which Personas she has with her right now. She laughs a little, almost embarrassed.]


So what do you think that says about me? If Personas are supposed to be our mask, like you said.
orphne: (Kotone 35)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
I was just curious!

[Booo. She sticks out her tongue when he doesn't answer and settles back with her cup of tea.]

But you don't have to tell me if you don't want. Like I said, I don't have Orpheus anymore, anyway.
orphne: (Kotone 1)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm... well, for me, it's not something a lot of people know about. You don't mind keeping it to yourself, right? I don't want to answer a bunch of annoying questions.

[Plus, like, if people start bothering Shinji, that's a big no from her.]

It is really interesting how different people are. Astralin-san made me a little flower made out of ice! I can't do anything like that.
orphne: (Kotone 54)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[That actually does reassure her. If it benefits him to tell someone, she'll trust his judgement. Or she'll figure out a way to just send all of that person's questions back to him.]

Uncool? It seems like it would be really unique and useful.
orphne: (Kotone 260)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm... does it work if people touch you?

[Reaches out with one finger to try to boop his forehead. They've already established that it doesn't seem to do anything to her, but it's funny to boop.]
orphne: (Kotone 250)

[personal profile] orphne 2023-04-03 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[Is that why the womanizing...

She draws her finger back with a shrug.]


You'll have to show me some time. It might not be very showy, but it sounds cool to me.

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