[Well, the confusion is enough to snap her out of the last lingering bits of the emotion she'd been struggling with, leaving her blinking at him and trying to figure out if she's being made fun of.]
It is. Orpheus is legendary! Orpheus and Whatshername, about to be married-- bam, not anymore, so Orpheus goes down to the underworld, and Orpheus' eloquence 'melted the hearts of the gods, and all fell silent'! Tell me that's not incredible in itself.
[She's still kind of blinking, more than a little thrown by his reaction. No one in SEES had been impressed by Orpheus, which made sense at the time. They'd all been really busy with everything else, and then going through Tartarus, picking up other Personas, fusing them...
Idly, she wonders how he'd react to know which Personas she has with her right now. She laughs a little, almost embarrassed.]
So what do you think that says about me? If Personas are supposed to be our mask, like you said.
Does it matter what I think? I like to see underneath it, and what I see shouldn't matter that much.
(please, don't become someone who needs dazai's opinion to move forward. it hardly ever ends well. he might be kinder than he thinks he's capable of being, but he's very much his own way of kind. kind in the way he wants to be, he's capable of being, when it's necessary to be.)
A man's gotta have his secrets, Koto-chan! But I can't imagine how that must be, this whole Persona deal... But I suppose you can't imagine my world, either. Isn't that interesting? I can't imagine having something so clear to think about.
(says, well, the man whose whole deal and ability say way too much. everyone's much like that.)
Hmm... well, for me, it's not something a lot of people know about. You don't mind keeping it to yourself, right? I don't want to answer a bunch of annoying questions.
[Plus, like, if people start bothering Shinji, that's a big no from her.]
It is really interesting how different people are. Astralin-san made me a little flower made out of ice! I can't do anything like that.
[That actually does reassure her. If it benefits him to tell someone, she'll trust his judgement. Or she'll figure out a way to just send all of that person's questions back to him.]
Uncool? It seems like it would be really unique and useful.
And it is. It isn't like turning into a tiger, or having super strength, or summoning an entity, or becoming visibly stronger the more money and assets you offer your ability -- that's sort of what it means! I just boop on occasion!
[Reaches out with one finger to try to boop his forehead. They've already established that it doesn't seem to do anything to her, but it's funny to boop.]
Like I said, I haven't tried summoning my Persona. It can be kind of difficult...
[She raises her hand up to her temple in the shape of a gun for just a moment before letting it fall.]
I need a special tool to do it. Someone explained it to me, but it was kind of complicated. It has to do with accepting our own mortality to gain the strength to do it, I think.
Is it...? I mean, if there's another way to summon it, I don't know how. Besides, sometimes Personas can... turn against their user, or someone can lose control over them. It's probably safer to use the correct tool.
[She's learning! Look at the way she doesn't change her expression or hesitate when talking about how people can lose control of their Personas!]
(oh, look at her, congratulations! it does still mean, that, like, this either could happen to her and she was warned, or she saw this happen, but look at her!! good job.)
This happened to us once, but it was... An attack, of sorts.
(ahahahaha. not like he was involved in it in any shape or form.)
[For the former, it probably had to do with how Strega members had gotten their Personas in the first place. For the latter, well... it could have been Shinji's inexperience or it could have been something about the fight itself. That's not something to share with anyone, though.]
[She just shrugs. She doesn't really get it, but there's a lot she doesn't know about Personas. Mitsuru would be the person to ask, but... well, she isn't here.]
I can only really speak for myself. I guess anything's possible!
Oh, if you do find another Persona user here, could you tell me?
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[Well, the confusion is enough to snap her out of the last lingering bits of the emotion she'd been struggling with, leaving her blinking at him and trying to figure out if she's being made fun of.]
Is it...?
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[She's still kind of blinking, more than a little thrown by his reaction. No one in SEES had been impressed by Orpheus, which made sense at the time. They'd all been really busy with everything else, and then going through Tartarus, picking up other Personas, fusing them...
Idly, she wonders how he'd react to know which Personas she has with her right now. She laughs a little, almost embarrassed.]
So what do you think that says about me? If Personas are supposed to be our mask, like you said.
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(please, don't become someone who needs dazai's opinion to move forward. it hardly ever ends well. he might be kinder than he thinks he's capable of being, but he's very much his own way of kind. kind in the way he wants to be, he's capable of being, when it's necessary to be.)
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[Booo. She sticks out her tongue when he doesn't answer and settles back with her cup of tea.]
But you don't have to tell me if you don't want. Like I said, I don't have Orpheus anymore, anyway.
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(says, well, the man whose whole deal and ability say way too much. everyone's much like that.)
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[Plus, like, if people start bothering Shinji, that's a big no from her.]
It is really interesting how different people are. Astralin-san made me a little flower made out of ice! I can't do anything like that.
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(if it gives her any sense of security.)
Neither can I! In truth, I don't remember seeing an ability like that either. Even my own... It's very powerful, rare, but sort of uncool.
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Uncool? It seems like it would be really unique and useful.
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[Reaches out with one finger to try to boop his forehead. They've already established that it doesn't seem to do anything to her, but it's funny to boop.]
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(which, well, fun, but also terrible!! he wants to be hugged and petted sometimes!!)
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She draws her finger back with a shrug.]
You'll have to show me some time. It might not be very showy, but it sounds cool to me.
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Like I said, I haven't tried summoning my Persona. It can be kind of difficult...
[She raises her hand up to her temple in the shape of a gun for just a moment before letting it fall.]
I need a special tool to do it. Someone explained it to me, but it was kind of complicated. It has to do with accepting our own mortality to gain the strength to do it, I think.
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(is it a gun? any gun? he taps himself, as if it's something he tends to have.)
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I don't have it with me. It's in my room. It's useless if someone doesn't have a Persona, so it's not like it's dangerous to leave it somewhere.
[And like, if someone stole it, what would they do with it...? She's not too worried about that possibility.]
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(sir, your co-coworker has absurd strength, on the caveat he's hungry, and when he eats, he falls asleep. like. who are you to say that shit.)
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[She's learning! Look at the way she doesn't change her expression or hesitate when talking about how people can lose control of their Personas!]
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(oh, look at her, congratulations! it does still mean, that, like, this either could happen to her and she was warned, or she saw this happen, but look at her!! good job.)
This happened to us once, but it was... An attack, of sorts.
(ahahahaha. not like he was involved in it in any shape or form.)
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[For the former, it probably had to do with how Strega members had gotten their Personas in the first place. For the latter, well... it could have been Shinji's inexperience or it could have been something about the fight itself. That's not something to share with anyone, though.]
What happened when you were attacked?
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(chuuya took care of it. ah, the graces of the double black hivemind. schemes work perfectly.)
Maybe another Persona User has a skill. It shouldn't be impossible if you're different, too.
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[To put it into her terms, it's like if Personas were separated from their users and attacked. (SMT would like to know your location).
She blinks at him, though.]
What kind of skill do you mean, exactly?
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I can only really speak for myself. I guess anything's possible!
Oh, if you do find another Persona user here, could you tell me?
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