Fail, [ a deadpan reply followed by a quiet huff that is the equivalent of laughter. fyodor still tucks his long limbs away but the distance is no longer as starkly marked.
his paranoia has no more cure than dazai's own passive suicidality, but that is alright. that is something that concerns fyodor more:] You've only seen my ability at work once, briefly. Trust that I am taking these precautions for the sake of keeping my promise to you.
[ however: ] You really wish to die, beyond a shadow of a doubt, right now.
[ fyodor who values control to a degree of inhumanity, thinks it is too risky still. yet he lets it lie between them. ]
It can be, depending.
But will you not tell me what I can do for you? I would offer you death if that's what you want truly, but I know you just want to leave the godling to find our corpses.
[ fyodor's emotions are a thing kept private, even from dazai --but he doesn't seem to really feel much about most things. though it could well be a side effect of crime and punishment ]
We should have stayed in Siberia, perhaps we would've been ... better.
[ not dazai though, dazai belongs in the agency--it's good for him; fyodor is not selfish in that way. though he wishes he were-- he'd keep dazai to himself forever. ]
(in another life, perhaps they could be happy sitting and doing their taxes. perhaps, just perhaps, they'd be normal, and it'd be enough for them. in this life, they can have each other - and pray for it to end cleanly.)
You are worried about me, but have you been taking care of your glass body?
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his paranoia has no more cure than dazai's own passive suicidality, but that is alright. that is something that concerns fyodor more:] You've only seen my ability at work once, briefly. Trust that I am taking these precautions for the sake of keeping my promise to you.
[ however: ] You really wish to die, beyond a shadow of a doubt, right now.
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And you've seen mine. I'm indestructible in that regard, which obviously doesn't work with suicide.
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[ he thinks he understands a little better now. ] If you could have your ability fail right now, you would touch me.
Do you really wish to die via my ability? If so, just to die or to know what it feels like?
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(the mind control being taken by touch. the way he could free fyodor from being stuck to the floor.)
Seems painless.
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It can be, depending.
But will you not tell me what I can do for you? I would offer you death if that's what you want truly, but I know you just want to leave the godling to find our corpses.
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(he needs out of this bed.)
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Only if you drink water once you awake.
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(the 'please' is implied. )
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a pause and then he is lying by dazai, though not touching it's clearly close enough that the smallest shifts would bring them together. ]
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... How are you feeling?
(after all - both of them lost someone.)
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there is no lie there. ] It was an inevitable less. I am more concerned about the living.
[ he means you and this depression dazai !!! ]
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(he isn't particularly happy - gogol is the same type of miserable hidden behind a smile and a joke and the absurd.
still. won't change what's done. he can't blame fyodor.)
It's not so different. We're just not surrounded by ice.
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We should have stayed in Siberia, perhaps we would've been ... better.
[ not dazai though, dazai belongs in the agency--it's good for him; fyodor is not selfish in that way. though he wishes he were-- he'd keep dazai to himself forever. ]
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(in another life, perhaps they could be happy sitting and doing their taxes. perhaps, just perhaps, they'd be normal, and it'd be enough for them. in this life, they can have each other - and pray for it to end cleanly.)
You are worried about me, but have you been taking care of your glass body?
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[ and of course, when there is work to be done, fyodor will do that. ]
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(important things for him to know.)