Are you so certain I wouldn't be able to tell? You spent nine months in a cell next to mine, even if Siberia was lost to us both, those nine months were plenty of time to make sure your face is as close to an open book. I will never be able to read your mind as I do others, that is a beautiful thing, while it is also sad. I feel like if I could wear your skin everything might go as I wish.
Very fair observation, I still cannot be sorry for causing this. I'm selfish about this one thing only.
I'm absolutely sure you wouldn't be able to tell. You've never seen me drunk, my dearest sunshine! Ah, I like that. Sunshine? Very positive thinking about wearing my skin, but it'd look a little saggy on you.
(due to the fact he's taller... awful people humor...)
You don't know what you caused to be sorry for something. Wouldn't it be an awfully empty apology in that case? I'm being selfish and keeping it to myself. Two can be selfish!
Sunshine? Is that not a tad...unfitting? As for your skin, well, I can cut and snip and stitch until it fits just right... [ a longer pause, as if fyodor is basking in the image. ] I need that.
In many ways we are alike and in many others we are divergent, but I will not pry open what secrets you wish to keep. Not right now like this.
Still. My indifference is kinder than my affection, you know.
There is no way, in this world or another, that you could ever be ugly in my eyes. [ is he gonna regret those words? lmao ]
Even so, I do not believe that in a good world this would be a normal statement. Affection implies devotion, implies selflessness, implies loyalty and trust.
[ his laughter is picked up by the charm; loose and relaxed and clearly if his words were still coherent his laughter is a telltale sign of drunkness. ]
As you once told me, yes all those things may well be true but what's wrong with that?
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(dazai, please, he was offering disfigurement.)
You wouldn't be able to tell from my face, either. Must you really enjoy a man who drinks so much, too?
It's not repentance when I know you're craving for it.
(because he is, too.)
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Very fair observation, I still cannot be sorry for causing this. I'm selfish about this one thing only.
[ us ]
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(due to the fact he's taller... awful people humor...)
You don't know what you caused to be sorry for something. Wouldn't it be an awfully empty apology in that case? I'm being selfish and keeping it to myself. Two can be selfish!
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In many ways we are alike and in many others we are divergent, but I will not pry open what secrets you wish to keep. Not right now like this.
Still. My indifference is kinder than my affection, you know.
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In my experience, that's a normal statement about how things are.
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Even so, I do not believe that in a good world this would be a normal statement. Affection implies devotion, implies selflessness, implies loyalty and trust.
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Relative. Affection also implies desperation, fear of losing, jealousy, monotony and dependence.
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As you once told me, yes all those things may well be true but what's wrong with that?
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You're endearing when you're drunk, did you know!
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[ an awkward pause. and an even more awkward, stilted, thanks: ] I thank you then.