(he could, and he has. dazai's lust has always been a little too much, so perhaps all this drunken logic is not helping the fact that dazai just really wants to run. it had been slightly easier with fyodor, because dazai has no issues admitting that he wants that man.

this one, however? a denial that runs deeper than anything else, and he's struggling, hands gripping against the wrist that keeps him in place. why does he have to be so strong, even when his ability isn't helping?)

Because!!! I wanted you and Fyodor!!!!! Ugh, I hate this, I hate this so much, if I had a gun I'd have emptied it on you!!! Or set you on fire!! Or hollowed your heart, because you suck!! If you don't let go of me, I'm going to torture you!!! Really much!!!